One Case

(A poem written January 17, 2012. Admitting a harmful habit is hard to do.)

One case
thirteen on the card
twelve and some cardboard
sacred red star
three days
need to buy more
five minute walk to the nearest corner store
sweet sip
joy by the mouthful
drown out all the loneliness
four and I'm feeling good
family jokes
"functional addict"
say that shit again, nigga,
promise you I've had it
twist top
one fluid motion
third DVD tonight
laughter is a potion
click, click
dating site app
heart hurts, mind figures
she didn't write back
another swig
hardly feel a thing
shit must be watered down
finish it quick
hate work
haven't loved in years
given up crying
drink all my tears
last one
cardboard in the trash
one long sigh to sleep
hoping it's the last.